Strength in weakness
Many years ago I had my life all planned out, then I met the Lord and it all changed.
Ever since grade school I knew what I wanted - to become an architect! But I didn't want to go through the university, because it was a known fact that architect who only had theoretical learning designed buildings that had builders shaking their heads. So I first wanted a practical skill, and since my mom's cousin was married to a carpentry master I signed up for an apprenticeship.
I was very fortunate that my master was old school. His dad had been a wind-mill builder, you know those old contraptions with wooden gears, rotating tower and big wooden wings. That was carpentry science of the higher order, and his son took pride in teaching good old fashion craftsmanship.
So after about three years I earned my diploma (with honours) and went from there to the building technical high school and after that to the architect department at "the Royal Academy of the Beautiful Arts" in Copenhagen. On my way to achieving my ambition.
Together with some fellow architect students we moved into Christiania, the hippie free-town in the heart of Copenhagen and became some of the founding fathers of that alternative, which by the way still exist to this day.
That's where everything changed.
The night it happened was an other-worldly experience! You see, I am probably the least spiritual person on this side of the North Pole, but somehow I was catapulted into the spirit world and saw that everything was alive, everything emanated aura, and the spirit world was real.
It totally blew me away and shattered all my reference points. I finally said, "so what's the answer?" At that moment a friend stepped into the room, he had joined a group of Jesus Freak that had come to Christiania, so I knew what he represented.
The aura of love he emanated lit up the room and a voice told me, "that's the answer!" Following right in the heels of that message was another voice in my mind saying, "watch out, you don't know what you are getting into. If you listen to that and follow that you will loose control of your life, you will not become an architect and you will not know what direction your life will take!"
I didn't care... the love, peace and purity that emanated from that guy who followed Jesus was what I wanted, so I jumped up, darted out of the room and down the stairs and into the night. When outside I cried, "so Jesus, You are real!" - that was a cosmic moment!
I truly believe I was filled with the Holy Spirit then. The whole world exploded and when it came down everything was crystal clear, "this is where you come from and this is where you are going" I don't know how else to explain it. But the greatest feeling was love, the feeling of being loved, being forgiven - whatever that means - but I could feel it!
Later on I realised that second voice was the enemy trying to keep me from yielding to the Lord.
Today I am so so happy I said yes to Jesus, He has taken me on a World tour and given meaning to my life way beyond what I could have ever achieved if I had chosen my own way and plan. - Thank you Jesus!
Now after so many years, so many adventures, so many countries, places, friends and amazing experiences I find myself running out of strength. My body is well worn and my physical condition is weighing me down, but the answer is still the same. Trust Him and let Him have control of your life. He recently gave me this scripture and promise...
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. ~ 2.Cor.12:9
(Prayer) Thank you for giving me that scripture Jesus, it seems to be a matter of letting go, like You showed me when I got saved, loosing control of my life, trusting You to lead, letting go of my own plans, my own way. And if I had perfect health and perfect strength I would just go off on my own and do my own thing - like Israel of old - leaning on the arm of the flesh instead of letting Your strength come to the fore in weakness.
(This is what came to me...) "Yes, you got it! But as usual it's easier said than done. Resting in Me, waiting on Me, as I told you the other day, is no small feat. It's not something that ministers to your pride or an "accomplishment" you can brag about... 'I waited on the Lord, and the miracle happened!'
"You feel you are doing nothing, but trusting and waiting is not nothing, it's precisely that... trusting and waiting! - Which takes great faith! A lot of faithful Abraham's credit was his ability to trust and wait. That's why it says patience takes faith. You have yet to learn that lesson. And, "your strength is to sit still... the Lord shall fight for you and you shall hold your peace" - so many reminders of things you have yet to learn to master."
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Thanks Gideon, glad you liked it.
Thank you for this beautiful testimony .We sure need to sit still and wait on Jesus for His help and solutions !And it's more necessary now when our bodies cannot go wildly like in our youth days !What a blessing to wait on the master and keep learning to wait on Him ,and Him alone !